Little boy

Little boy, please don't cry.
Take my hand and try to trust me.

I know your life fell apart.
I did my best to protect you.

Together we grew up to fast.
Together I had to take over.

In the start it was all fun.
Then the trouble began.

We did our best,
But often a cry on the couch was all we had.

The father gone,
At least in the sense that we knew.

Drink, booze, beer,
That's all that mattered to him.

A mom too depressed,
Bi-polar and unpredictable.

Loving one moment
And spiteful the next.

How could you have expected to cope with that?

You did your best to please them both.
But you were just a little scared boy who needed his parents.

Parents that didn't want to be needed.
Not by you at least it seems.

I did my best to grow up for you.
To become the person you wanted to be.

I am me now and I hope you trust that I can take care of us from this point.

Looking back,
I know you miss the childhood you never got.

But it really is better this way.

Knowing.
Realizing.
Able to love and grow.

You have but one person to turn towards now.
She's the one who always loved you.

That pain and misery you found so comforting,
let it go.

Let it go and try to grow.
I grew around you whether you knew it or not.

I am the adult now, but you the boy remain inside.

Try to grow, for both of our sakes.

I know it's hard, but be happy now.

Take comfort knowing that one does love you, nay not one but two.

For she loves you and so do I.

To the little boy inside myself, I speak these words of peace.

The world isn't as scary as you may think.

They are gone though.

The good times.
The times that were really bad, but you thought they were good.

I can show you the truth about those times little boy, if you wish to see.

I can be kind to your eyes and show you what really happened.
With nothing but love and care.

For your sake I want to show, so you stop crying every night.

Your faith in your broken family is dangerous little one.

You are too kind for that life.

Grow up and and become me, so we may be whole
at last.