Maybe if

The last time I fucked
her shouldn’t have been
the last time.

I have the bed
to myself now
and I eat scrambled eggs and watch
porn, but the eggs are cold

and the bed was warmer
with her in it.

The last time we watched
this tape, I fucked
her stupid.

Thank you, Vac-u-lock.

Her fingers scarred
my back and I plunged
into her. The wooden bed frame creaked
like the hold of an old slave ship rocked
by a summer storm.
Sibilant sighs, no, screams echo
in my ears, like she burned
them into the soundtrack.

Sounds funny as hell
coming from Ron Jeremy.

I fucked her stupid
and high-fived myself.
Maybe if I had fisted
her instead,

the last time wouldn’t have been
the last
time